So I don't post much about me. I realize that people really come here to see cute pictures, interesting stories, and funny quips about my kids, not to really hear from me. Today, the masses hear from me. I am tired of growing. I have been growing since I had the twins, I lost a bunch of the growth within a year of their birth. Yet when I got pregnant with Adele, I grew again. This time I was too tired with 4 kids within a 3.5 year space to care about the growth that was taking place. I have since re birthed and had an epiphany moment. If I care to loose the growth, I will become me again.
So I drastically cut my calories, diligently started working out every morning, stopped snacking and stopped drinking soda. I lost about 5 lbs at the beginning and got within 10 lbs of my original weight. I has since stopped loosing weight. I have held out this 10 lbs for more than 2 weeks and am so frustrated I could eat a pizza... by myself. What is the point to try to be more healthy if the real me never comes out. I might as well eat that cookie, or drink the diet coke that my body craves. But I am holding out, that .5% chance that I will actually loose the last 10 lbs is keeping me from giving totally up.
My brother is exceptionally knowledgeable about all things healthy and he has given me some great advice. To keep exercising, to keep diligently eating well, to keep moving. I get the point but have never had this much trouble loosing weight. I realize this is shallow, I don't truly care if I am.
But really, I just don't want to be the mom that never looses the 10 lbs. I want to be the Mom that doesn't look like she is 15 anymore but she does get in shape. Round, is not a shape.... So if you have any advice or good ideas... maybe some good recipes, let me know. If this doesn't start to come off I am going to do lipo, so start sending the referrals. The mere thought of having a Dr. suck the fat off strategical places seems like a good alternative to starving and exercising. Hum- going to think on that one.
Well like I said, this post is for me. Read if you want, comment if you feel the need, sympathise with me at least. Just don't send me any more cookie recipes.